“I have not often existed in the eyes of others, / because they didn’t see me how I see myself” rang through me like a bell; I love the way it contains disappointment and apathy and pride. We are far too slippery, even to ourselves, for names to settle on us for long. Sleek as the mother panther I might dream of if my mind were less addled by the overworld. It’s you who introduced me to Aramis and I’m eternally grateful for that! And how great to know that the new name has more Wain in it than Lear! Love him.
Thank you, Sun. Pascale Petit told me recently that the black jaguar also appears in her novel My Hummingbird Father. Of course I had to buy it straight away. I just started reading it, and the prose is poetic and stunning. It appears to be autofiction. The story is already familiar from reading Petit's poetry. Perhaps you might like it too.
The new name is inspired by both Wain and Lear. The last, because the poem it refers to is nonsensical, and it feels to me like that's the only way to approach life currently.
I'm learning it's better to flow with things. When I make declarations, they tend to keep me rooted in something I may not fit into anymore. I'm trying to go with said flow. I love your dream poem.
“I have not often existed in the eyes of others, / because they didn’t see me how I see myself” rang through me like a bell; I love the way it contains disappointment and apathy and pride. We are far too slippery, even to ourselves, for names to settle on us for long. Sleek as the mother panther I might dream of if my mind were less addled by the overworld. It’s you who introduced me to Aramis and I’m eternally grateful for that! And how great to know that the new name has more Wain in it than Lear! Love him.
Thank you, Sun. Pascale Petit told me recently that the black jaguar also appears in her novel My Hummingbird Father. Of course I had to buy it straight away. I just started reading it, and the prose is poetic and stunning. It appears to be autofiction. The story is already familiar from reading Petit's poetry. Perhaps you might like it too.
The new name is inspired by both Wain and Lear. The last, because the poem it refers to is nonsensical, and it feels to me like that's the only way to approach life currently.
I'm learning it's better to flow with things. When I make declarations, they tend to keep me rooted in something I may not fit into anymore. I'm trying to go with said flow. I love your dream poem.
Thanks for understanding, Jennifer!
now up to speed as to name change! i appreciate how authentic you are.
ps. what about the third?
Insert smiley face here.
ps. "Then dusk approached..." That's the third, Uche.
An interesting post and one that feels like it gets closer to who you are.
Thank you, Melanie. I'm trying to get to the root of things.